I’ve been thinking about dying lately. No, not “I’m gonna die! Oh, sh$%^&*, what am I going to do?” More like, “what do I want to accomplish now that I’m in my 50’s and I have a lot less time to get things done?”
I would like to take a whole bunch of science classes, like chemistry, biology, and physics. But they take a lot of time and energy. I could devote the next 10 years to this alone – for what? So I can be really smart?
I would like to get really buffed. You know, weight lifting, aerobics, the whole bit. But I don’t know how, and I’m kind of lazy. This ship may have sailed.
I would like to be the kind of person who sends cards all the time, not just for special occasions. As it is, I don’t send cards at all, and when I do, they are usually late. Accomplishing this would be like swimming upstream, I fear.
I would like to stop watching so much TV. But I think I really need an intervention to get this one done. I have the TV on even as I write this.
I would like to be more forgiving to people in general. Is this really possible? I’ve heard people say that they can forgive others, but I think they just secretly harbor resentments like the rest of us normal folks.
I would like to make a difference. Create or do something that really matters. This one I think has a real possible positive outcome. But again, I don’t know who to contact to let them know that I’m available for being amazing. For free, even. What, do I write a resume that starts with a Job Target of “want to make difference by being a wonderful, stellar human being. Willing to work for free.” I just don’t think anyone would really believe me. I have done some volunteer work, but my current volunteer gig is kind of boring. I sit around doing nothing a whole lot.
I would like to throw huge parties that people were dying to attend.
I would like to attend all of the grand slam tennis tournaments. But only if the weather isn’t too hot.
I would like to celebrate all the religious holidays in a decidedly secular manner. I fear this might offend some people. And I really don’t want to do any fasting for those holidays that require it. Give me the feasting holidays only, please.
When I think of some more things for my list, I’ll let you know. Maybe making the list is the closest I’ll ever get to some of these things.